Left on the aisle…

walking away, leaving me on the aisle, you are going
how little and inferior i was to you you are showing

red flowers that i held in my arm merrily a while ago
now lie limp on the floor you threw them as you go

i stare, flabbergasted, at your back through my veil
love.life.family, an epic fail.

to reason with me that’s what i told you
words still echo ‘its over cant bear you’

flawlessly, the white gown hangs on me still,
poke me in my ribs and that can kill

craving to run and grab you and beg,
sobbing too much on your leg

maybe that could remind you the day you vowed
marry me princess? and then you bowed

it took me a sec to say yes to you baby
as i thought I’d enter my heaven, well maybe.

running for dresses and preparing the guest list
last few weeks seemed like a mist

all now is just a dream. a nightmare.
its truly quoted ‘life inst fair’

i then feel someone grabs my arm and takes me somewhere
am i fainting? blur pictures everywhere

you are gone in your car alone without me,
flowers still decorated oh i cant see

few minutes of this evening and I’m a dead soul
pierced right through my heart, a deep hole

please tell me its all a joke?
I’ll sigh a relief as I’ll woke

but the gloomy faces of my friends and family
pity on the girl in white gown, tells the story

i let the gravity take over me, shrink-ed.
hitting the floor on which i was to be ringed

i lay closing my eyes murmuring your name.
a girl left on the aisle, what a shame.

Gone.

as now I’m told,
to write about the person who holds.

the key to my heart,
a very important part.

i figure what to express,
you are gone and im a mess.
to you, once oh dear, i was everything,
i had a place in the world, surely something.
when you leaned in to breathe me,
when you’re hand touched my knee.
a lump grew in my throat,
i then erased what i wrote.
it wasn’t a lump that grew in,
but a flower within.
flower, of love of care,
a feeling i cant ever share.
i watered it and you gave it sunshine,
oh yes! you said you are mine.
the flower blossomed, me all red,
ah and the day when we met.
the time, i was shocked, flew,
i was happy, so happy. and you too.
i thought i was lucky to have that flower,
but unluckily i lost that flower.
now when i say you are mine,
reply: you’ve lost your mind.
heartbroken, no smile to show,
oh baby please dont go?
i promise, I’ll behave,
without you life is a dark cave.
with no light and bright,
what a pity full sight.
please sweetheart forgive me?
please bother to love me?
i beg and die,
cant you see? why?
i left people because of you. now I’m alone,
there’s nothing. nothing. you are gone.